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The man who writes about himself and his own time is the only man who writes about all people and all time.

George Bernard Shaw

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Papa


No longer will I hear him caution me about life or just about my driving. No longer will I hear him sound asleep when I come home late. No longer will I see him drink his freshly brewed coffee with a contented face after the first sip. No longer will I see him on his couch watching TV. No longer will I hear him comment on the latest fiasco the government finds itself in. No longer will I hear him call out my name. No longer will I have this invisible net that I know will catch me when I fail. No longer can I draw strength from him when I find mine to be wanting.

All I have is this scar that refuses to go away.

What I would give to go back in time and cherish every single moment spent with him and not take him for granted. If I could just take back everything I've done or said that was hurtful to him and be the perfect son. If only I straightened out my life early so he could have seen me succeed and be truly proud of his second son. If only I could have told him more often that I love him.

The only thing I can think of doing now is treasure the fond memories I have of him...and that will have to be enough.